"Could I Ever" by planetshakers

I want to share the tune that's been playing in my head :)

Joel.Shawn, Kit Yee.me, me.Joel.Shawn

I had dinner with 1/2 of my Foolz cell tonight at Rail Mall, and it was good hearing about their lives at JC. Joel has transported from volleyball to hockey(and he's the captain!), Shawn ventured into canoeing (and has a REALLY weird diet now--he thinks mushrooms r bad for health..?!?!?!), and Kit Yee can't stop laughing over her clownish classmates (haha, really reminds me of MY clownish classmates. actually, wait. I was the clown haha!).

And I am really proud of them for making it to JC cuz i know they worked really hard during their O's, and in some strange way, i still feel very much like their mama.

Of course, a young, pretty mama. ;)

But rather aunty-ish. URGH.

Kiddos, if you're reading this, remember: once a fool, always a fool.

And of course, not just any other fool, but a FOOL for CHRIST! Lose yourself, that you might gain EVERYTHING in Him =)

Change. Tracy Chapman

Change. Tracy Chapman.

If you knew that you would die today
Saw the face of God and love

Would you change?

Would you change?

If you knew that love can break your heart

When you're down so low that you cannot fall

Would you change?

Would you change?

How bad, how good, does it need to get?

How many losses? how much regret?

What chain reaction would cause an effect?

Makes you turn around

Makes you try to explain

Makes you forgive and forget,

Makes you change

Makes you change

If you knew that you would be alone

Knowing right, being wrong,

Would you change?

Would you change?

If you knew that you would find a truth

That brings a pain that can't be soothed

Would you change?

Would you change?

How bad, how good, does it need to get?

How many losses? How much regret?

What chain reaction would cause an effect?

Makes you turn around

Makes you try to explain

Makes you forgive and forget,

Makes you change

Makes you change

Are you so up right

You can't be bent

If it comes to blows

Are you so sure you won't be crawling

If not for the good why risk falling

Why risk falling?

If everything you think you know

Makes your life unbearable

Would you change?

Would you change?

If you'd broken every rule and vow

And hard times come to bring you down

Would you change?

Would you change?

If you knew that you would die today,

If you saw the face of God and loved

Would you change?

Would you change?

If you saw the face of God and loved

If you saw the face of God and loved

Would you change?

Would you change?

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I got this song from jenn a long time ago and i've been listening to it since, but it was only in May that the lyrics really made sense to me. I think it's spectacular and such a bold challenge. So in-your-face.
It really reminds me of the ones i've lost, all of whom i love so dearly and miss so much, yet am so helpless about. I pray for you each time i remember you, and i won't give up.
May it speak to our hearts, whether it be for ourselves or the ones you're fighting for.
Let's not stop asking, seeking and knocking for them.

Hope on, for He...IS Hope.

;)

*Get the MP3 from me if you're interested. :)

E.E.Cummings, Ervina and Emotions.

Visiting joel's blog led me remember this poem that Sis Ervina read during her farewell speech at YA Service. It was so beautiful and touching that she cried; and i cried. The comical and giggly demeanor that she almost always maintains simply hides the emotional ernie that she really, truly is. :) i am so glad to have known her, even if it's in such a "second-hand" fashion, i am privileged. hopefully i'll find a chance to stay at her place someday, in perth. :)

For now, i leave you to enjoy this amazing poem. E.E.Cummings is really good with his poems, most of them at least. Check him out when u surf the web and have nothing valuable to do. :) It's more valuable than watching youtube videos about Fann Wong and Christopher Lee's romance. Haha!

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
not fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows


higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

- E. E. Cummings
(Complete Poems, 1904-1962)